Saturday, November 01, 2008

Halloween

So fast and we have reached the 1st Day of November -_- dunno if this is good or bad sia.... but first of all I wanna thank June girl for editing my blog for me and making it look so much nicer and personalized. How many times do I have to thank this girl sia.

and yes, Yesterday was Halloween!! but i can say it's kinda boring!!!! Not the company i had but the location i choose to spend this spooky day. I went to Howl at the Moon, a pub for that occassion and didnt really get to mingle with people from the online portal which i found out the event from.... So there was Rick, david and me... David is my boxing buddy. we last min agree to go together one. and so we were there at 10 plus, followed by rick who arrived at abt 11pm. To be honest I was already tired after my training and further more I hadnt had my dinner!! So u can imagine I was like a walking corpse attenting a boring Halloween party haha.

nvm, so rick came and we put on the scary monster mask and walk ard. we had a few cups of hse pour then decided that hey, that place and music aint our type of place so byebye halloween party and lots of my money too... f* waste of money !!!! after tat, david left for home and Rick and I went to catch a movie at CineLeisure. We watched a spookily freaking lame show haha. The Tropic Thundar!! damn lame la... every other scene u will hear a fuck word. wad a fucking show haha. I was thinking might as well watch RA show. oops.

by the time reach home already 3.30am la...... den i slept at 4.30am man... watch more videos myself at the comfort of my home before tugging in to bed.

Then RING!!!!!! 8AM!!! and my work starts at 8.30am~ Damn tired lor from Thursday onwards ... but wat to do...... after work i went straight to Bedok to see the QUan qi tao chinese doctor coz i injured my wrist during training again while practicing my left hooka. of well..... after that I went to ah ma hse =] took a nap .... again i put aside my shopping plan coz last min den ask people and no one seem to be free! den just stay at ah ma hse watch tv and suck thumb lor... =]

I wanna buy my protein powder and wat else...... I cut my nails though ha. Productive!!

Halloween apart, I met Grace from Philipines for one last time in Stone bar on thursday night as she has decided to return to her home country =] got her a small piece of cake and bit her farewell... gonna miss her~

today i also met my Reporting Officer , BL for my work review. Finally it has been done.... got to know the things i need to improve on and things i did well too. gambate!! on the darker side, i seems like i will be taking on more job -.- more and more things ..... i just pray that i can handle if not i will signal white flag and bug off.... Hell..

Ok this is so dreadful. Pens off....

Monday, October 27, 2008

Blogging

I suppose blogging is the only way to keep in touch with some people ha. Me, myself and I! -.- today i feel hungry for most of the time..... what the hell -.- fuck la.... ha. wasted my time agian.... what the fuck. fuck fuck fuck.

it'd be better if i was out.... and... i haven bought my protein powder!! bit expensive though... abt $80 - $100 per bottle.... what's more yesterday and today didnt go run.... didnt do push up too! -.- plan plan plan.... need to plan things in advance... like what that idiot always tell me. always last min.... act like some pro only... knn... hate people who try act like big shot infront of me... kenna slap by me den know... =p

i just got back my book from rick too.. the 7 habits of highly effective people book.. as you can see i am not really that effective at the moment... focusing on wrong things at times too... i am counting on you now book. u ll be my best friend for now. =p

wad else... i rotted and did nothing except on sat i ironed this entire week's office clothings? oh yar, i also bought a goldlion belt for $40.00 ? plus $16.90 worth of Hush pussy socks. damn... spending BIG money again~!

den went to eat thai accent at vivo... expensive but good food la.... yummy! i am deprived... i need a provider.... someone? anyone? do you hear me~! =p no response.... siao already ... need to check bank balance le.... need pt pass winston his stuff too... wad else.... do some accounting... and go sleep too ....

fucking day.... need more food............ food................................................... *starves* help............ x( *dead* btw my tag box is on the left side of my blog so do tag me ;) *dead* *poooof!*

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Updates =]

It's been months since i update my blog I realise ha. I keep want to make it a point to do it but always have reason to postpone typing down what's been happening in my life right now. Infact it took me quite abit of a determination to go to this site and start typing! amazing but true haha.. now i am hoping i can keep typing and finish my 'job'.

Well well well. let's begin with my family. Recently has a tiff with my mum and we are no longer in talking terms.. as you know woman.... they like to nag nag nag non-stop. i cant stand it man haha. cant stand so dun talk lor. every time talk kenna penalise this and that think i still dare to approach her ah. all this do give me bit of a stress la. Small things like this throws you off a little sometimes.... but i do know that things will get better! as long as i remain confident and be a bit more proactive in terms of communicating to her.

And yes, my brother's birthday is coming soon so hopefully can organize something so that we can all get together again hee. i will be the person organizing this get together >.< my brother will be 21 soon. it's suppose to be some special thing yea? now we can only hope for a good dinner haha...

Friends
Recently June invited me to go Hari Raya hse visiting to her besties, who are also my good friends' hses. It was really fun and as usual we have a great time together. The two buddies of june and i are Del and Lydiana. U guys are the best! Del even gave us Green packets! ha. she was quite generous with the amount too even though we are all of the same age at just 24 this year. Let's congratulate her as she will be officially married next year in march!! hee. Looking forward to attending her wedding. After visiting are done, June and I went to parkway to makan and the basement at one of the chinese restaurants.. yummy!! I love the food.. not too ex but also very nice. We ordered some chicken herbal noodle and our usual yang chou chao fan ne. And as usual we will share share =] half half to get the best of both worlds. June was not feeling well but still accompanied me to buy my swimming trunk as I am going swimming the next day so I really appreciate her effort. Thank you June. After that we went home and home sweet home... =]

The swim wear cost me $31.00 !! so expensive!! and the worst part? it's loose... my 'brother' feel like it can slip out anytime >.< sharks man... too loose for my own good ha. From the way i put it, yes, I have used it haha.. loose sia... den throughout the whole water activity i constantly need to adjust it sia. damn embarressing -.- and each time i do that i pray that nobody is looking -.- sibei paiseh....

Talking abt that, I went swimming with my buddy, Nicolas at Wild wild wetta =] to be honest it was my first time to WWW. and it was fun. The first thing we went for is already the scariest 'activity' in the theme park. The 'U' shape slide drop. it was like dropping off a cliff which is literally vertial and I was the person facing down lol. two of us really screamed like a gay for that. man. Then we went to observe other people doing it then we realised that we were the only people who screamed -.- nvm. we also tried the Tsunami. Play like boys only... pretending to be surf boys, jumping here and there. at the end of the day look like two over cooked lobster. after that i company nic to Sim Lim to have his PSP repaired, went makan den head for home, officially as hunks with nice burns (*not tann). Nic and I usually talk abt boxing, muaythai and other fighting stuff =] even our swim is meant to be for body conditioning. Everything we do has to have a purpose coz we all want to become stronger and we want to be the best.

Myself.
It can be quite boring being with just myself sometimes.... I need a mate . someone who can give me more attention, * etc. I have lost one so now it's more of a me, myself and I. Moreover I have made a pact with my ex not to contact each other and wished her all the best with a prospect that she currently is having. Many a times i would feel like contacting her but I will just hold myself back for we have made a pact. There were times when she ever told me that, life is so much better without me in the picture. So i suppose i am doing the right thing eh? Nvm I guess. So much for that.

In my work place in Ministry Of Manpower, I am a committee member in the Social Development club. It's just like SDU whereby we promote dating activities for singles within the Ministry. Pretty cool eh? yea, so there was this Dr Pat love seminar which came abt and SDC members were able to attend it at half price, just $10.00 to attend a full day seminar with refreshments and lunch inclusive at Amara Hotel. Aint it great!? =] So I went and got to learn a little more things abt love, how man and woman behave and think.... their differences and how so den can they live in harmony and happily. Was greatful that I went! I got to make some new friends too and that was that, a day with time well spent.

shortly after, there were actually media coverages of Dr pat love abt her life and such and why do guys in sg need to be taught how to date by a foreigner etc. I felt that it's really bull shit. Singaporeans and their liking to stir up news for nothing productive... what's up with their head man. Feel like slapping those people who brought up those issues or topics which were irrelavant. oops, me and my slapping thing again. =p this one Jie ying will know very well haha..

Boxing
what can i say, i am training much more consistantly now. going for run whenever possible or when i know i am going to rot at home staring at the pc.... again... push up regimes has now became a routine too.. my arms becoming bigger and definitely stronger too. working towards becoming the super human like mike tyson =].

Guess what, recently during one of the sparring session in my boxing gym, one guy was actually knocked out cold. I pity that guy. His ego and moral was definitely crushed by the other guy who gave him that powerful blow to his chin. This is actually the first time we ever saw a knock out in our boxing gym. It really showed that him, my friend, Fikri who is only 19 yrs old age has alot of potential and power in his punches. So in the changing room i said this to him, "You are next". haha... Now he stress liao... everyone wants a piece of him. Everyone wants to take him down now. So who will be able to take him down? I shall update again when I come in to write and update this small blog of mine again...

In the mean time do take good care to all the friends who are friends to me and truely care... Mr Fish is gonna ROCK THE WORLD.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Past week

The past week has been eventful.

My sister's bdae on the 19th July just ended.... i didnt attend the dinner *guilty* ... making up with bdae present shopping for her.... =] hope to get the right thing for her~!

Stepped up with traning... reached the 4 days a week training mark just this week! 2 days boxing, 2 days qigong. I really can feel that I am becoming stronger by the day, healthier too.

Then I went to ah ma hse on sat night to stay over. cooked mee pok instant noodles too hee..
the next day, my only plan is to keep ah ma company and stay till night time when it's bed time for her =] taught her some simple qigong breathing techniques too. hope she will practice it. I can see that she has somewhat lost the fire in her eyes. I do not want to see that. I want her to live her life happy every single day. I hope i can do more for my dear.... Please be happy and healthy every day. i didnt plan what to do exactly so when that happens, it physical training for me. first comes push ups, den comes hand grip. Then i have shadow boxing. then i went to the stadium nearby to do the 'qigong' run. did the 'bridge' thingie too and after chin up, home sweet home to ah ma hse. Took shower den makan lunch at 2plus. Next thing is nappy time! woke up, drank water then go toilet. eat dinner, watch tv chat with ah ma bit den go home!! -abt an hr trip back.

now that it's weekend i need to plan what to do the next week again. and i haven iron my clothings!! -_- aiyo.... how i wish things could be simpler sometimes. need to do this need to do that. i only got two hands and one brain nei! There are so many aspects of life. Friends, Family, Work, personal goals, interests.... gao dao wo twan twan zhuan.

this month has also been abt attending courses which company sent us to, too. went for 2 courses just this month. making things happen and getting things done + problem solving and decision making. Learnt alot!!

oh yes not forgetting my first Bonus too!!! hee... lucky got bonus if not my bank really going to be empty liao. plus the govt distributed GST package. Thank god, amen =]

Now, I just gotta focus on my readings, training and getting work done at work and I shall be a happy man. ;)

Pens off~!

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Qigong and Me

I started Qigong abt 3 weeks ago.

My health has since improved and the training has helped me in my Boxing training too! It's that amazing.

I used to go for Boxing training after a day of work, tired and hungry. Now, with more Qi (Life energy in our body). I am able to last the whole training with the ability to sustain throughout the whole training. No longer do I drag myself through the lesson, hoping I could do better when my body is obviously tired. I get the training I need and muscles worked to it's max potential!

Let me highlight some of the benefits of the Qigong I am learning.

-Learning Qigong will give you more Qi to bring you through any activity through the day without much of a problem.

-It solves bone and joint problems

-Gastric problems can be solved with the practice of the Qigong I am currently learning too.

-The first thing it does to you when u start practicing is that it helps you digest so much better, clearing yr bowels timely, allowing you to feel great and ready for the day ahead. By having your bowels cleared, the toxins are cleared of your body leaving you a healthier person who feels less fatigue which is a common 'problem' experienced by most of us nowadays.

The list of benefits goes on.....

If you would like to know how much I am paying per month, it's $50.00.
Location: Blk 533 Ang Mo Kio Ave 5 8pm - 10pm, Tues & Fri 2-4pm on Sundays
Blk 404 Ang Mo Kio Ave 10 8pm - 10pm, Mon & Thurs

My Sifu, Mr Loh can be contacted at 90497230

It will be really good if you ask your ah ma or ah gong to learn to solve all the common joint problems they have.

Cheers!

Time for bed! =]

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

The Road Back

It's back to training now after one week's break.

Today, 18th June 2008 I went back to continue my boxing training. The ring has temporarily been removed for modification works to be done. On the other hand it also means more moving space for the trainees.

The experienced boxers and beginners were separated during training thus we are able to get more focused training to help us improve our skills, speed and power.

With the still injured nose which i sustained during my latest stint a open match that bled for several many minutes I was again hit on the same spot during a light exchange exercise. It gave me a mixed feelings of helplessness and frustration. But after that I cleared up and went back to train, with the bags coz they wont really hit u back no matter how hard you kick or punch them! =D It turned out to be fruitful. My jabs and crosses improved in speed and power trumendously.

The hit i got which led me to bleeding again turned out handy. I begun working on my defense. Somehow i drew inspiration from some of my fellow boxers whist they were doing some light sparring practices. That was just before I punched the bags and got the outcome which turned out good. With the defensive movements I added in, it created room for my punches to be delivered much more smoothly and with more confidence as I would be much better guarded too.

One more thing, just yesterday night before i sleep, I discovered my correct punching posture, hands slightly close to the body for tight defense and slightly elevated too. From that position, deliver the 1,2. My arms stretched all the way out with good speed and power. With repetition, the power is there to stay. It's like a present for me, coming in small packages one at a time for me perserverence and determination to claim what would rightfully and eventually be mine, The Champion's Throne.

In all, it was all good and progressive. The pain has always something good in exchange for me to take with me so it served as a source of encouragement to bring me to the next level. God bless and Pens off.

*The new boxing shoes I received as a bdae gift played a great part in my improved balance too ;)

Monday, June 16, 2008

Father's Day

Cool.

Went out and had a good time with hj. went to the IT show to get the ink catridge for my printer. it was $52.00, one black and one colour catridge. Saved some money there. When it is not under promotion, it would have cost me $70+ dollars!! So i saved quite a bit =]

That was that. We later went to mac and ate a little before I met up with my family who were already gathered at Central (at clarke quay) which is super near my work place, just waiting for me =].

My siblings were in charge of the present and me? I am giving my father and whoever attended a dinner treat! And so we went to Tom TOn Japanese Restaurant. It's a place that specialise on Black Pigs. And I mean very expensive pigs my godness.

We ordered the food and begun digging in. After the satisfactory meal, came the bill. Even my brothers and sisters break cold sweat for me. $297.55. My sister took a picture of it to commorate this day and I took out my debit card to put my signature on it. Ouch.

Nevertheless I was happy that they were all happy =] especially my father. On top of the meal, he got a Soviet Titus watch which he really likes.

Pens off.

My 2nd Boxing Competition

I had my second boxing competition on the 8th June 2008 and I came in 2nd too -_- Hopefully I dun come in 3rd on my 3rd competition -_- . It was held at Sembawang Community Centre in the early Sunday morning.

That day although I lost, I stood up all the way till the end. In the last round, I was hit on my nose, blood flew out and the ref stopped the fight. It was over. My opponent leaped away in joy and jubilation, celebrating his sweet victory.

At that point in time, although a little disappointed that I lost the match after all the painstaking training, I was proud of myself to have stood up throughout the match, in the ring. I was a brave warrior. I stood firm till the battle is over. Anyway I was focusing on the blood that was flowing from my nose ceaselessly to my shirt, my shorts, on my shoes then to the canvas.

I finally got hit and bled I thought. As I thought back, I remembered the number of times I broke other's nose and see them bled. That day, it was my turn haha. I was a little amused by it and wasnt really affacted by the fact that I am bleeding as the many who bled coz of me continued fighting, training even harder after that. They have given me the courage to take it like a man.

I want to be the champ. I will become the champion. I'll be back =]

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Coughs coughs

Oh man I am having a coughing spell... Somehow I cant get rid of the phlegm in my throat or lungs and it's so irritating!!! That made me go find out more about coughing and below is an extract from http://www.netdoctor.co.uk/ just incase there is copyright issue, I hereby proclaim that this is an extract that belongs to netdoctor.co.uk.


Coughing defined.
Reviewed by Dr John Pillinger, GP
Coughing is a reflex action started by stimulation of sensory nerves in the lining of the respiratory passages - the tubes we use to breathe. When a person coughs, there is a short intake of breath and the larynx (the voice box) closes momentarily. The abdominal and chest muscles used for breathing contract, which in turn increases the pressure needed to drive air out the lungs when the larynx re-opens. The resulting blast of air comes out at high speed, scrubbing and clearing the airway of dust, dirt or excessive secretions. Coughing is a common symptom when the airways are 'tight', as in asthma.The cough reflex is a vital part of the body's defence mechanisms. Normally, the lungs and the lower respiratory passages are sterile. If dust or dirt get into the lungs, they could become a breeding ground for bacteria and cause pneumonia or infection in the breathing tubes. What causes coughing?Coughing usually means there is something in the respiratory passages that should not be there. This can be caused by breathing in dust particles in the air or when a piece of food goes down the wrong way. It could also be a sign that an infection in the lungs is making the respiratory passages produce phlegm. Coughing can be provoked by:
the common cold, which is a frequent cause of acute cough that usually settles in less than three weeks.
sucking material into the breathing tubes from your mouth.
more severe illnesses, such as pneumonia, acute heart failure or pulmonary embolism (a clot in the blood vessels of the lung).
smoking, which often causes chronic cough (smoker's lung).
asthma - particularly in children who may only cough and show no wheezing.
stomach acid coming back up the gullet and spilling over into the windpipe (gastro-oesophageal reflux).
medicines used in heart disease called ACE inhibitors.
bacterial or viral infections in the lungs, eg acute bronchitis, pneumonia, whooping cough, croup in children
rarely coughing can be provoked by psychological illness
damage to the nerves that supply the vocal chords (known as vocal chordpalsy) and chronic cough can occur.Coughing is more efficient when preceded by a full intake of air. For this reason, patients with weak muscles, poor coordination of airway closure and re-opening, or who have airflow obstruction (as inCOPD) will have a poor cough and be susceptible to complications including infection in the lower respiratory tract and pneumonia.

This is another good website I found that helps people who are interested in taking care of their own health.

http://www.buteykoscotland.co.uk/healthtips1.htm (Very good site).

Saturday, March 29, 2008

The End

It's the end. Today is the day i felt most humiliated upon. I never will have anything to do with you anymore. I hate you to the max. I never felt so stupid by being setup anybody before. I will move on with my life carrying this pain in my heart I will never forget and I will never ever forgive you. I hate myself.. *aches*

Friday, March 21, 2008

Ord to 1st Boxing Match on 9th March 2008

I had my first boxing match on the 9th March 2008. I won. YEA!!!!! hahaz...

Prior to this fight, I was in Muaythai for about 3 years have since fought 5 Muaythai competition. The most recent being the one held at Hockey Village at Boon lay CC if I do not remember wrongly =] I fought an young inpiring Kickboxer who is only 17 years old as at 2008.

It was a 3 rounds match then. I floored him once with my punches that landed hard. I felt it. But he was strong and stood up. Awhile later in the match, I landed a good left kick to his ribs that caused him quite abit of pain. Once again, being strong willed, he hung on. In the last round I was clinched by the neck and took some knee strikes from him.

For that match I had to settle for a draw but, I really learnt alot from it! Totally great start for me too, to start a fight in the beginning of the year!

So that was that. Being a floating soul and 'without' a Muaythai gym I can settle down in since I finished my national service on 7th May 2007, I trained with Alvin, a Muaythai Coach/friend of mine on and off. Under him I even fought my friend and 'ex' gym mate from Hilltop Muaythai that was abt 5 to 6kg heavier than me in an 'exhibition' match for Contenders Asia, an event held in Singapore in Sept 2007.

For that match, I lost due to the last round which was filled with clinching. Clinching was an area that I had not been training for after some time and that resulted in me taking a few more knee kick to my body than I should have. I had to be on my defensive for most of the last round. As a consolation, I did have my moment in that match. My left hook caught him in the chin in the first round almost knocking him down beautifully. Damn it was good =P

On that same day I fought that match I got a call from Liz from Recruit Express, a friendly and super helpful agent whom I engaged to help me find a job when I was jobless after I quit a part time job which I held. She informed me that I got an interview for a job at MOM! Ministry of Manpower! A place where all the powerful people go! =p

On 1st October 2007, I entered Ministry of Manpower. And to celebrate that, it was Children's Day too!! No party though ha. It was the day I first met Boon leng, my manager, Grace, my assist manager, Jeremy ma buddy and Caroline, my 'shi jie'. On my first day there I remember having lunch with Ruth, Jeremy, Michael from WORK PERMIT side plus Yanling at Sheng Xiong there =)

So days went by as I settle down in my new work place.. all peaceful and well. Then there was this day. This day which I got VERY VERY PISSED, Credit to Ms Lim Jun Hui. =P I was so pissed I want to find a reason to vent my anger or an excuse to continue my path as a Martial Artist. I made that my reason. So on that very day as I was on my way back home from work I didnt alight at Hougang where I live but alighted at Little India station instead where my current boxing gym, U2Can is located at. It was a Friday I remember as we were able to dress down. I went there, spoke to the coach and requested to start immediately. It was kind of funny as I wasnt in the right attire!! I was wearing a pink polo top that is very striking in color and rusty color army pants plus a pair of rugged looking sneakers -_- totally off in attire for an Boxing class. Nevertheless I asked for permission to do it that way and was given the green light.

And so the class begun and we were doing physical conditioning for a start. Being still quite pissed I was really ON for all the exercises that was given although I was really tired after a long day at work and it was a long long time since I go intensive on 'exercise'!! Plus I havent taken my dinner.

Half way through, I got into a dizzy spell -_-. Kind of fainting sensation, turned cold and broke into cold sweat. Coach Bala was the only coach there and then. He sat me down and advised me to do a few exercises to get me back and blood flowing properly again. After awhile he asked me to join back to continue with the exercises that followed. He then asked in an not so friendly manner, "Jimmy, are you tired?!" "No coach!", I replied not like I have other options... After awhile I was seeing double of everything again.

Coach Bala being REALLY concerned decided to pour water down my head to wake me up or to freshen me up after my second fainting spell quickly got hold of a bottle of 'WATER' not knowing that it was a bottle of 100plus, happily poured over my head and everything else below. It tasted kinda good though and yes it was REALLY quite refreshing. Then he went Oops, I did it again.

Eventually Coach Sri came into our gym and joined the coaching team to guide us to become better Boxers. Both coaches showed plenty of care and interest in me as I was good with my straight punches as they mentioned several times. So they reckon that I should train and go for the competition in March that was to be held in Velocity at Novena Square, a public fight event for all to see.

With them, I trained and grew as a boxer, learning from them what I missed out or didnt get to learn while I was practicing Muaythai. So that was it, I trained hard, worked for what I aspired for. On that very day, I fought with what I had and what I knew to that point of time and I Won.

Yes, finally my work had paid off good. Finally Jimmy is victorious.

After my victory, Coach Bala gave me a hug and said that he was proud of me and that I did a great job. Coach Sri too, ever so confident of what I am capable of, came up to me and gave me a pad on my back and smiled, telling me that he knew I could knock my opponent down haha....

On the other hand, I would like to credit my opponent for being a great and sporting fighter too. As according to my coaches, without him I would never get the chance to be a winner. And I didnt say that he was good just becoz i am trying to be kind or cocky. I was actually knocked out cold by him on the 3rd round of the match. It was a clean powerful shot on my head that sent me to the canvas, making me see black screen for a second. I had to use my will to continue to climb up and fight him again, head on to seal the eventual victory. I thank my coaches and my opponent for making me the fighter I am today, making it a meaningful life and a life with purpose and something to forward to.

Lastly I would like to thank June. June, thank you for making me so angry that day. Had it not been for you I might not even be at Velocity on the 9th March 2008 to become what I was meant to become =] I promise I will only get better and Win in my matches to come..... I will become the best there is can be. That is my goal. -Pens off

Reminder of Feelings

Some quotes I find meaningful:

"If you don't bother about other people's feelings, you better don't wish that other people care abt your feelings. " -Jimmy

"I wouldn't care a shit about what you do if I had not put in effort like being truthful, honesty and care in the relationship." -Jimmy

"By making decisions only if it only benefit you but not considering what or how it would affact another person's feeling is a selfish decision." -Jimmy

Monday, November 19, 2007

Promises. Lies. Expectations. Disappointment. Satisfaction.Journey. Discovery. Pain.Irony. Health. Mood. Emotions. Mind. Control. Method. Knowledge.

People are classified as either Mature or, Not Mature. But how do we further investigate make a final decision and put a label on a person? There's a saying that put forth that one who has control over his emotion, is a mature and grown up person, spiritually, emotionally. Whereas those who live by instinct and react instead of make proactive decisions then act are termed, childish.

there has been an universal misconception about one thing. we all think that we are our mind. the truth is, it's not true. our mind is an seperate entity to us. we are not our mind. Let's take a closer look at what the mind is and some of the characteristics which it enbodies.

Our mind lived with us since we are born. it has little control over us when we are still in our 'baby' time. but as we grow older, it gets the better of most of us. in short it's a monster in us that could destroy us if not handled properly.

It has some behavioral traits:

1- It holds internal conversations in our head (like the angel and devil talking in us. something we commonly see in cartoons.

2- It likes to make judgements. 'He looks cute!' is a common one. There are worst but i shall not go into that.

3- It loves to compare. one of it's top favourite. 'How i wish i am as tall as him....' sounds familiar?

4- Dramatising our life situations. What is simplicity!? Let's go for an car accident! How abt tripping over an banana and break a bone or two. Top on it's list.

5- Thinking incessantly. Ever found yourself in situation whereby you cant stop thinking even when you are fucking tired and need a break from all that 'work'? Good luck to you.

6- Thinking negatively. 65% of what comes from that side is not positive.

7- Dwells into the past and future but never on the present moment, which is what's most important in our life. If you look back at the times which you looked into the past or think abt somethings in the future that might happen but has yet happen? How often do you feel positive emotion from those thoughts? Tell me about it.

8- Get all too emotional and likes being emotional. Shows how it's going to make you a big and 'mature' person. All the best if you continue associating yourself to this 'great' pal of yours.

When i first found out about this scary truth, i was scared. i was like, wtf. do i need to be exocised or sumthin? damn... fortunately the way out aint that tough as it might seem. atleast u and i dun need to hire an exocist yet? freak it aite.

ok, let me show some other examples of people who lost themselves to their 'best' pal, the devil living in ya.

Ever see people you jUDGEd as 'CRAZY' shouting vulgarities all over anybody going near them or just simply talking to themselves like some people are talking to them? Look at point No. 1 abv on the Mind's characteristics. These people you see are just ADVANCE stages of things went out of control. These people have basically lost their souls to their mind that took over not without permission from the 'previous' owner of the body that held a soul. Great example of the living dead, just like a zombie, waiting to be withered and blend with the soil. Talking out loud is a projection of what's going on in the minds of that person holding an internal conversation. The only difference is, Internal and External Projection. So everyone of us are more or less to a certain extend, insane too.

Who here likes to bitch around =]. well it's simply your mind doing what it likes best. All the best to you, we are talking about how, bit by bit your mind is taking grounds over you like a virus spreading in you, slowly and deadly. People who make concious decisions not to behave the way their mind wants them to, eventually gain control over their life. They are the powerful people out there. They are the happy people out there. They control their own life's circumstances. not the other way round.

Feeling all miserable even when you are all well and alive? Your mind says, well what should we do next, How abt feeling sad first then angry =p. ah i know, to add a little drama, how abt cutting our wrist. you know what i am talkin abt.

Wanna feel sad ? it's easy, look back into a PAST relationship. how long do you want to feel sad. 1hr, 1 month and start feeling all depressed? How abt this. You broke something that you know is something precious to your mother. The next thing that you will do is make a short Projection into the FUTURE. fuck she is going to drill a hole in my head. You feel all worried and yr mood dampened. When she comes back, saw the mess, gives you a pad to tell you how much she values you more. You just screwed yourself for nothing. when Living in the PRESENT, the NOW of TIME is much more fufilling than anything else in this world you find gratifying.

NOthing gives you eternal bliss other than to be able to live in the NOW. Because NOW is forever. The only time you truely know that you are alive and still living in this beautiful world. The past is dead. it is no longer real. what is NOW IS REAL. Dont waste time in the PAST ANYMORE. YOU ARE WASTING YOUR NOWs, your life. FEARING DEATH is a great example of living in the fear of FUTURE. fuck, you are alive now, the fuck with future. live this moment like the last. You never know what's going to happen tmr, next week. so fuck it.

Love anything that is presently surrounding you like it's the first time you are experiencing it, everytime. every experience is new. your hse, a book in your shelf, your parents infront of you.
The joy is lasting and lasts forever. Love for all blooms. There's no longer color, race or religion. all are brothers and sisters.

when you stop judging others you are setting your soul free of more fresh breathing air to inhale love into you and breath out love to others ard you. never will you feel such satisfaction from freeing yourself to judging others. most importantly, stop judging yourself. You are your worst critic. sounds familiar. nobody in this world other than yourself can pad you on your should and carry yourself up and start walking again after a fall. nobody is more reliable than yourself. you got to be your best buddy when nobody else seem to care. fresh air, go for it. the moment you made a judgement on something or someone else, you are prevented from living in the PRESENT moment. and at the very same moment, you are being judged too. so the more you do it the more trapped you become.

pens off for now.

Sunday, October 07, 2007

The feeling.

Recently, about 2 weeks ago I took part in a Muaythai 'friendly' competition which wasnt really very friendly~ Fought a friend whom i knew who was abt eh, 7kg heavier than me and on that 'friendly' match i lost. That's not really the point I am trying to emphasize though. He was good and that was it. Although I lost, I won too. I am always a winner, that's what I think of myself. Losing never dampant my spirit. Infact it fires me up more... each and everyday after the match my burning desire to step up the ring to face off with anyone who dares step up the ring rages in my mind. I will dominate all anything that comes my way. It just keep playing back in my head like this, always like that.

That's besides the point though ha. It's not really so much about what happens in the fight, as while fighting you dun really have time to feel, you just have to keep 'doing' and never think lol. And that was what I did in that match that somewhat earned me my lost. In the ring, start thinking of what to do next is The End. what one needs to do is just fight and just fight. Dont kill the match, yr match, yr chance of Victory.

Nevertheless the time which you can 'feel' the most within yourself is the period of time before you step inside the ring. It's not a feeling people get to experience in one person's normal day. But, but, if you a criminal on the run, maybe, maybe we felt the same rush of adrenaline, fear and nervousness that's almost uncontrollable regardless of how confident you might be. Cold sweat will start flowing out of you like a drug addict under going a cold turkey phase while trying to kick away the drug addiction.

The night before? sometimes sleeping becomes a problem too ha. And that's not really good you know, when rest before the match is one of the most crucial factor ha. Some cant even sleep, I dunno. It would continue until say, 10mins before the fight itself. That, was some work itself.

Then, that match itself, when I stepped into the ring, all the fear and anxiety vanished. It was then replaced by a feeling of bliss, and even joy haha... unfortunately it got a little sleepy too haha... and the sense of excitement came in too. It was like, I finally made it up here, again. I was once again in charge of my life. I took control and did what I had to do many times over what I missed.

I won, too.

Working and Money

Finally I have officially 'entered' the working world. Just last week as of 1st Oct 2007, i begun work at ministry of manpower in the work pass division as a mso(management support officer). I got this job through Recuit express through my consultant, Liz Low who was introduced to me by Nicole, my Muaythai lady friend. Thank you Nicole!

Yup so it also means that I have left The Buffet Club. Made alots of friends there and learnt alot of things. So if you still are interested in the BuffetClub feel free to let me know and I can refer you to my colleagues who are still working there =]. A very good club especially if you are a person who enjoys Buffet dining.

I would consider myself lucky to be able to go into the jobs which I have been to as of now. All of which are healthy working places with encouraging people and people with positive working attitute.

In my new work place I report to work by 8.30am everyday end go home after 6pm although Mon to Thurs the go home time is 6pm and unfortunately no OT pay de. Friday, the go home time is 5.30pm and we get to dress down hee so not so bad. Lunch time is 1pm to 2pm! It's acutally a 6 months contract though. Hopefully i would be given a full time position after 3 or 6months if I perform well! =] Then I will get an pay increment. I need to start saving.

Need to come out with a plan to save soon. Maybe some reading will help... Ready.... Action! ;)

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Buffet Club where I work Now





Buffet Club is where I work now for 2 Months plus now ever since I left My Gym Wonderland where I worked there for a month plus, taking care of Expat childrens and a good mix of Japanese and Korean children too! It was really fun working there.. And so yes, that was my first job I had right after I ORD =] .

I joined BuffetClub almost immediately I left My Gym =] Looked through the papers, made a call and got an interview with Jennifer, my sales manager ha. It's her Birthday today btw, as of 22nd Aug =] while she was still away and Andy the Angmo Managing Director took over for a few days. Kinda cool and fun guy ha.. always breaking lame jokes to keep the office environment lively. To be exact I joined BuffetClub (Oncard Pte Ltd) on the 13th June 2007.

After finding out from Jennifer that this Hotel membership program cost $298.00 I was a little taken aback. Nevertheless I thought this could be a great time for me to prove to myself that I can. Jumped into this and the rest is history. And so, after much Striving I finally got my first Sale on the 19th June 2007 =D wee.....

So far I made 14 Sales! as of 22 August 2007. Phiew! Not alot but it's not too bad either isnt it. Hitting the target is never an easy task. Our job is always on the line. Infact there's a saying abt being sales people. You are as good as what you made yesterday, today is today. Make or break.

Nevertheless I am proud of this job and the product. let me briefly present what a BuffetClub member would get in this affordable package!

Buffet Club has already a steady base of 20,000 plus members since we first premiered here in Singapore 3 years ago.

In a nutshell as a Buffet Club member, you would be able to enjoy Complimentary Dining of Buffets(1 for 1) at our 13 4-5 Star Hotels. You will be given 13 Complimentary 1 for 1 Dining Vouchers, one for each Hotel! (See website for the partcipating Hotels and Buffets). and an exclusive BuffetClub membership card that entitles you unlimited 20% off total bill each time you flash the card when not using vouchers or during promotions etc.

In addition you also get to enjoy great savings with the discount cash vouchers when dining in groups which are fully transferable!!

These additional Cash Vouchers which we are bundling for you are as follows:

$40 cash voucher for use at Straits Cafe @ Rendezvous, Hotel Rendezvous (min 4 pax dining) $50 cash voucher for use at Cafe Georges, Le Meridien Singapore (min 4 pax dining)
$50 cash voucher for use at Kintamani Indonesian Restaurant, Furama Riverfront Hotel (min 4 pax dining)
$100 cash voucher for use at Kintamani Indonesian Restaurant, Furama Riverfront Hotel (min 10 pax dining)
$100 cash voucher for use at The Square, Furama Riverfront Hotel (min 10pax dining)
$50 cash voucher for use at The Square, Furama Riverfront Hotel (min 4pax dining)

Locally, we have 13 Exclusive Hotels outlets in our participating list and they are conveniently located along the Central Business District and City area.

Our Hotel restaurants serves Chinese, Japanese, Mediteranian, International buffet as well as Indonesian, Italian and our local's favourite Seafood buffet. For Durian lovers, you can visit Calton Hotel's Cafe vic to enjoy our Durian buffet ;)

Moreover, because we are Celebrating our 6th year Anniversary since our first launch in Asia, our priviledged member will enjoy a complimentary 4 Days 3 Nights holiday stay at either

CORPTHORNE ORCHID HOTEL IN PENANG,
SUMMERSET RESORT IN RHOMPIN PAHANG,
SIAMBEVERLY HOTEL IN BANGKOK OR
THE PLAZA HOTEL IN BANGKOK!
PATONG BAYSHORE HOTEL IN PHUKET!

....depending on your preference. Infact we have total of 10 destination for you to choose from. I will just list 5 here.

We make special Birthday and Wedding anniversary celebrations for our members too, helping you make special arrangements on your very special days! And it's just $298.00 for a full year(13months from the date of activation) of fun and change of lifestyle plus enjoyment of great ambience and 'kou fu' to try a wide variety of palatable food! $100 off the usual rate.


Note: if you checked out our website you will realise that promotion for Hotels are updated weekly which is really exciting! Sometimes you just have to flash your BuffetClub membership card and you get to dine 1-for-1 for up to 8 people! You never know what new privilege you get to enjoy next with us. We send you weekly mails to make sure when there are new promotions, you will be the first to be informed.

In summery in a package you will get:
- 13 Complimentary 1-for-1 dining vouchers at our 13 participating Hotels (one each)
- 6 Cash Vouchers for group dining that are fully transferable worth $390- A 4days 3night/3days 2night Holiday stay with 8 destinations for you to choose from worth $210,
- And if you refer 1 of your friends to us, you will get an additional Sup card for a lucky person whom you can nominate to hold to enjoy the same amount of dining privilege as you.
- Plus a one time Body wellness Spa treatment experience just for our members worth $318

Cool? if you like what you see, just drop me a msg @ 91791209!

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

A glimpse of my life since a long time ago...


It's good know what you have lived as before.... We can look back and learn from our past but don't live in it. Live now and rejoyce what is coming ahead with zest and enthusiasism. Make sure what comes next gets better and better.

LIVE LIFE TO THE MAX!!!!

Monday, August 20, 2007

Health Tips

BRAIN DAMAGING HABITS>>

1. No Breakfast> People who do not take breakfast are going to have a lower blood sugar> level.> This leads to an insufficient supply of nutrients to the brain causing> brain degeneration.>>

2. Overeating> It causes hardening of the brain arteries, leading to a decrease inmental> power.>>

3. Smoking> It causes multiple brain shrinkage and may lead to Alzheimer disease.>>

4. High Sugar consumption> Too much sugar will interrupt the absorption of proteins and nutrients> causing malnutrition and may interfere with brain development.>>

5. Air Pollution> The brain is the largest oxygen consumer in our body. Inhalingpolluted> air decreases the supply of oxygen to the brain, bringing about adecrease> in brain efficiency.>>

6. Sleep Deprivation> Sleep allows our brain to rest. Long term deprivation from sleep will> accelerate the death of brain cells.>

7. Head covered while sleeping> Sleeping with the head covered, increases the concentration of carbon> dioxide and decrease concentration of oxygen that may lead to brain> damaging effects.>>

8. Working your brain during illness> Working hard or studying with sickness may lead to a decrease in> effectiveness of the brain as well as damage the brain.>>

9. Lacking in stimulating thoughts> Thinking is the best way to train our brain, lacking in brainstimulation> thoughts may cause brain shrinkage.>>

10. Talking Rarely> Intellectual conversations will promote the efficiency of the brain

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The main causes of liver damage are:>>
1. Sleeping too late and waking up too late are main cause.>

2. Not urinating in the morning.>

3. Too much eating.>

4. Skipping breakfast.>

5. Consuming too much medication.>

6. Consuming too much preservatives, additives, food coloring, and> artificial sweetener.>

7. Consuming unhealthy cooking oil. As much as possible reduce cookingoil> use when frying, which includes even the best cooking oils like oliveoil.> Do not consume fried foods when you are tired, except if the body isvery> fit.>

8. Consuming raw (overly done) foods also add to the burden of liver.> Veggies should be eaten raw or cooked 3-5 parts. Fried veggies shouldbe> finished in one sitting, do not store.>>

We should prevent this without necessarily spending more. We just haveto> adopt a good daily lifestyle and eating habits. Maintaining goodeating> habits and time condition are very important for our bodies to absorband> get rid of unnecessary chemicals according to "schedule.">>>>

Because:>> Evening at 9 - 11pm: is the time for eliminating unnecessary/toxic> chemicals (detoxification) from the antibody system (lymph nodes).This> time duration should be spent by relaxing or listening to music. If during> this time a housewife is still in an unrelaxed state such as washingthe> dishes or monitoring children doing their homework, this will have a> negative impact on health.>>

Evening at 11pm - 1am: is the detoxification process in the liver, and> ideally should be done in a deep sleep state.>> Early morning 1 - 3am: detoxification process in the gall, alsoideally> done in a deep sleep state.> Early morning 3 - 5am: detoxification in the lungs. Therefore therewill> sometimes be a severe cough for cough sufferers during this time.Since> the detoxification process had reached the respiratory tract, there isno> need to take cough medicine so as not to interfere with toxin removal> process.> Morning 5 - 7am: detoxification in the colon, you should empty yourbowel.>>>

Morning 7 - 9am: absorption of nutrients in the small intestine, you> should be having breakfast at this time. Breakfast should be earlier,> before 6:30am, for those who are sick. Breakfast before 7:30am is very> beneficial to those wanting to stay fit. Those who always skipbreakfast,> they should change their habits, and it is still better to eatbreakfast> late until 9 - 10am rather than no meal at all.>>

Sleeping so late and waking up too late will disrupt the process of> removing unnecessary chemicals. Aside from that, midnight to 4:00 amis> the time when the bone marrow produces blood. Therefore, have a goodsleep> and don't sleep late.

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Checkout My Army Daze!


Memories of moi army daze =] so fast and it's going to be the 3rd month since I ord =] looking back it's just like a student missing those good old school days after they enter the working industry where once in awhile they still get an holiday break. For me, I dun really miss the school days, army days were my 'school' equivilent. It's a place where I experience what I didnt get to experience or should have while in school. Friendship, teamwork, cooperation, initiative, assertiveness, discipline, responsibility, passion are the things I get to exercise or made to exercise while in my days in 8SAB (SINGAPORE ARMOUR BRIGADE) . My Ops Wo would be the one who acts like a father figure, taking care of all the Man and Sgt discipline issues and issueing punish orders for us to 'suffer' and have something moan & groan about, ensuring that our determination to leave army get stronger by the day. Oh yes, that means I learnt determination skill there too. =P In camp, sometimes Yen Ran, Min Hui and myself would engage in mini fighting sessions in our bunk area to practice our Muaythai skills... Punching the hell out of each other until we tire out then we will call it a day. Den we haf Mr Dennis.. our king 'funny man' cum joke king ha. Never fail to make people laugh and always kickass with his Karate skills.. He never fail to impress me with his wit and kicking and fighting skills. Then we haf my goodiest buddy, Peter, a little f***up (in a funny way) at times but is always the one covering up my ass for me when I came up with new 'Stunts' haha.. well atleast he tried his best? But trust me sometimes he is more lor-sor than any aunties you can find out there and always kenna beat up by Dennis, myself and Thomas becoz of that lol... Even the last day we are still beating him hmmm. Sometimes he would go berserk and go kicking and punching us back =p oh well. As for Bracer, he is our Mr Animation in camp and No. 1 anti-ns personal there. Siva, our armskote man, better treat him well or dun ever think of getting your clearance signed when you are going to ord ha. He is a super nice guy who is very optimistic. Prash is our cheetah in the camp... Runs like his life depended on it and always talking abt nutrition until head become so small. Not forgetting Danny, our RP, a good buddy of mine who likes cars and military weapons and system alot. He would share with me those knowledge and teach me a little of his family kungfu that he used in the streets before. Then we haf Terence Chung ha, also a good slacking buddy of mine ha. Goes to gym and always looking at getting his 6 pack up. Lastly , we haf my understudy Nicolas, a Taekwondo blackbelt holder ok...... ha. Not bad for a understudy. He passed his ippt!! Came together with him is YY(Yao Yu) and Quek (another nicolas) . Always enjoy their company and have a good laugh together... =] Let's meet up again sometime soon people! ;) That's all folks! Cheers!