there are many things that i want but the following things are the things i want now.
sometimes, to many, it seems like i have everything in life and life seem so complete. i have a passion (muaythai), i have got the heights, general knowledge, 4 other siblings that are not closely knitted together? ha...i have got part time jobs with high pay, seem to know alot of people etc. but what is the truth?
the truth is that i dun feel i have a friend, a true one atleast. well, not really that i dun have any friend but you know, the friend(s) that is, and always there for you when you need him/her? at times i thought i have, i was only disappointed to find that well, maybe not. everybody is so busy with their lifes, who wants to be bothered about your life and death? it's sad i know... maybe it's the way i am that is causing all these? am i to be blamed? maybe.. it's not easy sometimes, you got to do all things right... you cant do this you cant do that... i am beginning to be sick of rules haha... there are just so many to follow! i guess i broke them and it has lead me to be experience what i am feeling right now eh? Nevertheless, what i want now is a friend. someone whom i can talk to when i need someone to talk to, company when i need one, very simply, someone whom i can spend time with. a female would be a bonus? =)
it's not that i am desperate or anything, but i feel i ought to get a girlfriend, this special someone to own , to cherish and to love. perhaps they key element in my life that's missing at the moment is 'love'. so if you looking for love and you are reading this do give me some love alright? haha... i am making myself seem so deprived of love ha... i love women. be good if i have a girlfriend? yaya.. all i am thinking about is having a girlfriend haha... single and available wat...
ya so to sum up wat i wan is a friend + a girlfriend type of combination. get wat i mean? :P
i really wan one... can you be mine? (apply to girls only) (0-0") i would want one with integrity (one who honors her words, do wat she says)
although i wont say i am a fantastic person, i work towards being a person of Integrity, doing what i say i would. when i made a promise i make a point i try fulfill it unless something really come up. i have friends who tell me they care for me (words), but when i need someone to talk to, just talking, i dun get no response haha... (actions). their words and action dun match. that, is a little disappointing for me at times. there little or nothing i can do ofcoz haz... maybe let them know? not too sure if it would help at all? do wat you say, be congruent! ha.. else it would be rather hard for me to trust and feel i can rely on ya? it's the same in the business world, if you are a man/women of your word people come to you, you will get partners more orders, more customers etc. =]
other things that i want:
1) Get driving license
2) Trip to Thailand
3) Have contant Income, influx of them would be good...
4) Money to learn Taichi Qigong, money to do anything i want
5) Win my Muaythai Competition, SABA on the 15th April 2005 at ferra park mrt near ferra park primary school. it will be most probably start at 12pm.
6) Have more clarity
7) Excellent health
8) Sufficient rest all the time,
and a understanding girl... =)
8 comments:
most of the times,you will only get to realize how much ur "friends" care for you when something realli bad happened to youu.i know it's sad,but it's true.and about u wanting someone to be there whenever u need him/her,it's kinda selfish as well.she or he definitely has her own life.she/he doesn't live for you ONLY.but still yeahh,if it's ur gf.then well.it's up to the gf to decide whether she should be forever "online" for you and let her world spin around you only.i am not critizing,just sharing a friendly view=)hope u dun mindd!
you go and die la... talk rubbish.. if you cant understand then so be it... dun have to pour cold water. dun you think your point of view is also very one-sided? selfish girl. if you have not noticed, you have been thinking about yourself all the time now isnt it? you are so smart nobody can make an opinion of their own. shit you. you better wake up. you the thing is that i am not saying that i expect anything right.... just saying that i dun feel have the thing i hope i can have.. thanks for your 'friendly point of view' i hope you wont mind my reply too! i am replying the same way you post a comment, you happy? :) hope you are.
yeah come to think about it.i dun understand u at all.and i dun think i ever shall or even want to.stay in ur own perfect world and i will do so too.
I am just an wandering soul haha.. well Jimmy, your needs is like anybody else's needs. friends are not always there for you, i have to agree on that.But I'm sure there are times where you didnt play much attention to them?
Just do your best as a friend to others, and I am sure they will feel it to..
Haha.. abt ur gf criteria. there are many like that. keep looking it will come true..
hi phoe.. um thanks for the 3cents! well ya i think after sometime perception of things did change for me... i am living new experiences everyday now, and i like it hee... not really so serious abt getting a gf although i am keeping lookout? =] Not jumping into relationship for the sake of having one anymore? =] ya.. hopefully =p um yeah hopefully will find one that i can click well with =]
Looking back I really feel like i am an idiot bastard .... it's true that i was really acting selfish... i tot that the world revolve ard me or i am the center of the earth and every one has to comply to my demands and wishes.. I am sorry Karen for I was such a selfish person all these while.. I lost a person whom is such a beautiful gift and it's a great lost. One of my biggest regrets... Why? why do i haf to go through such a big learning curve and to haf to drag a lovely soul so dear down with me??? I am really sorry...
25 Jan 07... it's been at least two years since all tat has gone and past... 5th Feb is her birthday.. Happy Birthday to you Karen wherever you are.
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