competitionless

as far as i know, i have been a competitive person since young.. now that i have grown up i have learnt to make it into something healthy. if things have to be competitive, it will be healthy competition, not something that is made into a life and death, heart and soul, head losing ordeal no more. ha... as i recall, that is how hard i look at things... everything serious, especially when it comes to competition.. 'Never say die' and 'Must win' has been my faithful mottos i bring with me for many years of my life... =p
i learnt things the hard way i guess. it didnt take long for me to find out that those hard core mottos i held tightly onto myself were actually, occassionally straining relationships with some of my peers. it;s only from then on that well i learnt to control :)

so there was this kickboxing competition i was involved in, or rather almost involved in ha.... it was postponed from feb to march, march to april and now? CANCELLED lol.... wonderful lite?? i tot i could soon fufil moi dream of Fighting in a competition and Perhaps winning one.... now my hopes has been dashed yet again... to be honest i was almost quite confident in my debut.. i guess i'd just have to be a little more patient.... just like a patient haha.... so after the long break of being competitionless i once again have to rejoin that 'compaany' again....

the competitionless company....... hello~