as far as i know, i have been a competitive person since young.. now that i have grown up i have learnt to make it into something healthy. if things have to be competitive, it will be healthy competition, not something that is made into a life and death, heart and soul, head losing ordeal no more. ha... as i recall, that is how hard i look at things... everything serious, especially when it comes to competition.. 'Never say die' and 'Must win' has been my faithful mottos i bring with me for many years of my life... =p
i learnt things the hard way i guess. it didnt take long for me to find out that those hard core mottos i held tightly onto myself were actually, occassionally straining relationships with some of my peers. it;s only from then on that well i learnt to control :)
so there was this kickboxing competition i was involved in, or rather almost involved in ha.... it was postponed from feb to march, march to april and now? CANCELLED lol.... wonderful lite?? i tot i could soon fufil moi dream of Fighting in a competition and Perhaps winning one.... now my hopes has been dashed yet again... to be honest i was almost quite confident in my debut.. i guess i'd just have to be a little more patient.... just like a patient haha.... so after the long break of being competitionless i once again have to rejoin that 'compaany' again....
the competitionless company....... hello~
Hi people this is me jimmy :) and anything recorded would be small accounts of my tini winy life that is ever so lively :p full of changes yet adapted with ease and balance. feel free to drop comments!
Saturday, April 30, 2005
my life updated
come to think about it that karen is really becoming more like me haha... so mean nowadays haz.... meano2. life still move on as ever though i continue have the fetish to blow her blain up... it's not my fault, she just need that extra doze of craziness in her life which she obviously think she doesnt need? lol... anyway she was my ex....
after the experience, i kinda realise that hey maybe this is how life works... sometimes there's just no chance for redemption! especially when your habit is something which the other person dread the most? lol... especially when you said sorry countless number of times and yet repeating the same things over and over again~! can we call this a 'meant to be thing'?
why is it that in some ways i cant get my mind off this person ne? i guess it's becoz of the times we have had that i still remember that allowed me to linger on? well maybe then that way i wont view myself as a heartless person ba? memories treasure. locked. i dunno why i am typing these but ya.. these are just things on my mind and this is what a blog is for isnt it haha....
recently i read this book by the title of 'Unlimited Power' by Anthony Robbins. it mentioned something about Giving. it mentioned that sometimes while in a relationship with a friend or spouse, it is important that we give more than what you think you can get back in return. if a couple dun think that way but instead do; "i just gave, now it's his turn". when you start taking account, it's assured that the relationship wont last for too long. so after reading it and doing a little reflection, i tot, "yea..". what i had been doing in the past was mostly demands after demands... now that things have turned our sour, i can only not repeat the same 'mistake' i made... give give give..
after the experience, i kinda realise that hey maybe this is how life works... sometimes there's just no chance for redemption! especially when your habit is something which the other person dread the most? lol... especially when you said sorry countless number of times and yet repeating the same things over and over again~! can we call this a 'meant to be thing'?
why is it that in some ways i cant get my mind off this person ne? i guess it's becoz of the times we have had that i still remember that allowed me to linger on? well maybe then that way i wont view myself as a heartless person ba? memories treasure. locked. i dunno why i am typing these but ya.. these are just things on my mind and this is what a blog is for isnt it haha....
recently i read this book by the title of 'Unlimited Power' by Anthony Robbins. it mentioned something about Giving. it mentioned that sometimes while in a relationship with a friend or spouse, it is important that we give more than what you think you can get back in return. if a couple dun think that way but instead do; "i just gave, now it's his turn". when you start taking account, it's assured that the relationship wont last for too long. so after reading it and doing a little reflection, i tot, "yea..". what i had been doing in the past was mostly demands after demands... now that things have turned our sour, i can only not repeat the same 'mistake' i made... give give give..
Thursday, March 31, 2005
my wants
there are many things that i want but the following things are the things i want now.
sometimes, to many, it seems like i have everything in life and life seem so complete. i have a passion (muaythai), i have got the heights, general knowledge, 4 other siblings that are not closely knitted together? ha...i have got part time jobs with high pay, seem to know alot of people etc. but what is the truth?
the truth is that i dun feel i have a friend, a true one atleast. well, not really that i dun have any friend but you know, the friend(s) that is, and always there for you when you need him/her? at times i thought i have, i was only disappointed to find that well, maybe not. everybody is so busy with their lifes, who wants to be bothered about your life and death? it's sad i know... maybe it's the way i am that is causing all these? am i to be blamed? maybe.. it's not easy sometimes, you got to do all things right... you cant do this you cant do that... i am beginning to be sick of rules haha... there are just so many to follow! i guess i broke them and it has lead me to be experience what i am feeling right now eh? Nevertheless, what i want now is a friend. someone whom i can talk to when i need someone to talk to, company when i need one, very simply, someone whom i can spend time with. a female would be a bonus? =)
it's not that i am desperate or anything, but i feel i ought to get a girlfriend, this special someone to own , to cherish and to love. perhaps they key element in my life that's missing at the moment is 'love'. so if you looking for love and you are reading this do give me some love alright? haha... i am making myself seem so deprived of love ha... i love women. be good if i have a girlfriend? yaya.. all i am thinking about is having a girlfriend haha... single and available wat...
ya so to sum up wat i wan is a friend + a girlfriend type of combination. get wat i mean? :P
i really wan one... can you be mine? (apply to girls only) (0-0") i would want one with integrity (one who honors her words, do wat she says)
although i wont say i am a fantastic person, i work towards being a person of Integrity, doing what i say i would. when i made a promise i make a point i try fulfill it unless something really come up. i have friends who tell me they care for me (words), but when i need someone to talk to, just talking, i dun get no response haha... (actions). their words and action dun match. that, is a little disappointing for me at times. there little or nothing i can do ofcoz haz... maybe let them know? not too sure if it would help at all? do wat you say, be congruent! ha.. else it would be rather hard for me to trust and feel i can rely on ya? it's the same in the business world, if you are a man/women of your word people come to you, you will get partners more orders, more customers etc. =]
other things that i want:
1) Get driving license
2) Trip to Thailand
3) Have contant Income, influx of them would be good...
4) Money to learn Taichi Qigong, money to do anything i want
5) Win my Muaythai Competition, SABA on the 15th April 2005 at ferra park mrt near ferra park primary school. it will be most probably start at 12pm.
6) Have more clarity
7) Excellent health
8) Sufficient rest all the time,
and a understanding girl... =)
sometimes, to many, it seems like i have everything in life and life seem so complete. i have a passion (muaythai), i have got the heights, general knowledge, 4 other siblings that are not closely knitted together? ha...i have got part time jobs with high pay, seem to know alot of people etc. but what is the truth?
the truth is that i dun feel i have a friend, a true one atleast. well, not really that i dun have any friend but you know, the friend(s) that is, and always there for you when you need him/her? at times i thought i have, i was only disappointed to find that well, maybe not. everybody is so busy with their lifes, who wants to be bothered about your life and death? it's sad i know... maybe it's the way i am that is causing all these? am i to be blamed? maybe.. it's not easy sometimes, you got to do all things right... you cant do this you cant do that... i am beginning to be sick of rules haha... there are just so many to follow! i guess i broke them and it has lead me to be experience what i am feeling right now eh? Nevertheless, what i want now is a friend. someone whom i can talk to when i need someone to talk to, company when i need one, very simply, someone whom i can spend time with. a female would be a bonus? =)
it's not that i am desperate or anything, but i feel i ought to get a girlfriend, this special someone to own , to cherish and to love. perhaps they key element in my life that's missing at the moment is 'love'. so if you looking for love and you are reading this do give me some love alright? haha... i am making myself seem so deprived of love ha... i love women. be good if i have a girlfriend? yaya.. all i am thinking about is having a girlfriend haha... single and available wat...
ya so to sum up wat i wan is a friend + a girlfriend type of combination. get wat i mean? :P
i really wan one... can you be mine? (apply to girls only) (0-0") i would want one with integrity (one who honors her words, do wat she says)
although i wont say i am a fantastic person, i work towards being a person of Integrity, doing what i say i would. when i made a promise i make a point i try fulfill it unless something really come up. i have friends who tell me they care for me (words), but when i need someone to talk to, just talking, i dun get no response haha... (actions). their words and action dun match. that, is a little disappointing for me at times. there little or nothing i can do ofcoz haz... maybe let them know? not too sure if it would help at all? do wat you say, be congruent! ha.. else it would be rather hard for me to trust and feel i can rely on ya? it's the same in the business world, if you are a man/women of your word people come to you, you will get partners more orders, more customers etc. =]
other things that i want:
1) Get driving license
2) Trip to Thailand
3) Have contant Income, influx of them would be good...
4) Money to learn Taichi Qigong, money to do anything i want
5) Win my Muaythai Competition, SABA on the 15th April 2005 at ferra park mrt near ferra park primary school. it will be most probably start at 12pm.
6) Have more clarity
7) Excellent health
8) Sufficient rest all the time,
and a understanding girl... =)
Thursday, March 10, 2005
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
My first blog
Yes, this is my first blog haha... finally i stop procrastinating and took my first step in doing what i had wanted to do for sometime now.
In my first blog, i would like to briefly update this online diary of the activities which i have been engaging for the past few days.
I have been moving about virtually in and out of forums replying to threads post. Had quite a number of interesting replies and are most entertaining for myself. What i notice in forum is that once in awhile when ideas clash, words typed out kinda runs outta control lolx... people practically started argueing till some peace keepers come go in to intervene. =p I guess all people have a mind of their own and therefore it is only perfectly normal that ideas clash.
Muaythai. My martial arts ofcoz. FOr the past week i trained for 6 consecutive weeks!! hahaz.. can you belief it? It was definitly no easy task. i had to work in the day and train at night till sunday then i was able to relax and go out and have a breather with Karen. She is fabulous and i always enjoy my day out with her. We ate, sat, chat, looked ard and that was enough to make my day. Thanks! Karen you are the cutest! =)
Nevertheless the training was all worth it, it would meant how well i do for my virgin Martial Arts Competition, my virgin Muaythai Competition too. I am all excited and cross my finger i perform at my peak with the power of my subconscious mind assisting me in all my ways and lead me to become the Champion and bring it to pass. I will boldly make a statement here. I fight to Win and Victory it shall be.
That was how i spent my whole of last week. End of first blog!
Count down to MuayThai Glory: 11 days left
In my first blog, i would like to briefly update this online diary of the activities which i have been engaging for the past few days.
I have been moving about virtually in and out of forums replying to threads post. Had quite a number of interesting replies and are most entertaining for myself. What i notice in forum is that once in awhile when ideas clash, words typed out kinda runs outta control lolx... people practically started argueing till some peace keepers come go in to intervene. =p I guess all people have a mind of their own and therefore it is only perfectly normal that ideas clash.
Muaythai. My martial arts ofcoz. FOr the past week i trained for 6 consecutive weeks!! hahaz.. can you belief it? It was definitly no easy task. i had to work in the day and train at night till sunday then i was able to relax and go out and have a breather with Karen. She is fabulous and i always enjoy my day out with her. We ate, sat, chat, looked ard and that was enough to make my day. Thanks! Karen you are the cutest! =)
Nevertheless the training was all worth it, it would meant how well i do for my virgin Martial Arts Competition, my virgin Muaythai Competition too. I am all excited and cross my finger i perform at my peak with the power of my subconscious mind assisting me in all my ways and lead me to become the Champion and bring it to pass. I will boldly make a statement here. I fight to Win and Victory it shall be.
That was how i spent my whole of last week. End of first blog!
Count down to MuayThai Glory: 11 days left
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